Creative Writing – “Outside Looking In”

 

By Taylor Beard | Sports Editor

May 20, 2015

There are many things that people do not understand about each other. Whether it’s the fact that we can not comprehend what is going on in people’s minds or with their emotions, we sure like to try. We can look at a beloved athlete, envy them, and dream about what their life is like. Or we can look at someone who doesn’t seem alright and instantly judge them to decide what has caused that feeling. And then there are those who are in between.

Hi, my name is Julia. I’m writing this because everything inside of my mind is about to make me burst. Everything in my life has seemed to go in a completely different direction.

Here’s my story.

I am 15 years old, and in the middle of my sophomore year in high school. I have two brothers and a sister. One of my brothers is a freshman at Boston College, and the other is a junior in high school. My sister is in the sixth grade. You might think that having three siblings is tough, but it’s not. I love my siblings, even though they can be a pain in my butt. Our parents are divorced, separating only five months ago. The split has been hard on my whole family, especially since it was after my brother went off to college. I’m closer with all of my siblings now, but the one I’m closest to is Anthony, my brother who is a junior. Having them has really helped me get along.

Additionally, my parents’ split has caused me to create a  persona for myself that I do not approve of.

Since the divorce I have not been myself. I’m a girl who strives to exceed her goals. In school I had a 4.0, with a strong social life. Ever since five months ago, my GPA has been going down. I put a smile on my face everyday even though I hate the person I’m turning into. Someone who doesn’t complete her tasks and lets her emotions get the best of her.

I put so much pressure on myself mostly because I want my parents to see that their divorce is not affecting me. It is. Seeing my parents sneak in new “lovers” every night is something I wish I could get out of my brain but I can’t.

With all of this pressure, I feel like I’m going to explode. Every weekend I turn to partying as a solution and now I have a craving for it everyday. Sometimes I give into the urge.

I hope I can turn my life around because if I continue to go down this path, I am going to completely disappoint myself and everyone around me. Either way, though, I’m going to keep smiling and move forward in my life. That’s the only way I know how.